Near 3 Months

Yes, it have been near 3 months since i last updated. Guess wat? That's roughly how long was my last school vacation. So what have I been doing in the past 3 months? Basically, i have like went back to CSC and have been continously working week after week after week and before i knew it, my vacation is coming to an end already.

Besides, the little short break i took to go to genting with my family, i practically am working everyday tgt with jol in my office though we're doing different things most of the time. Well, i really envy some of my lucky frens who managed to go for the summer exchange programme. Some to the US, Canada, others to Korea. i must admit during this summer vacation though i did not go anywhere else, i still managed to meet up a couple of frens for a couple of times and had some very good time tgt especially with TBG.

Also, i have managed to watch many many movies during this summer vacation and as u all noe one of my love is movies! Many many good movies were screen recently and i think i had almost every week or so have been catching the movies either with frens or with my greatest companion, my sister who can be quite tiresome too. *oopS*

Besides, i have also finished my conquest of 6 seasons of sex and the city at tudou.com as i totally like tt movie a lot tt i perservere to watch thru the whole series. With all those witty conversations the best frens have had really spiced up my life a little. As u can see, my life is tt boring tt it wasn't worth blogging most of the time. And on the other time, i was simply too tired to blog after work and on weekends i was too busy gg out.

Yeap~ i have decided that i wld concentrate on Biology as i guess that is where my passion lies and it must be kept going. Perhaps, like Hugh Tan had said, biology is not a soft option though i personally thinks it really is a soft option for me as compared to studying bms modules. And out of the one cohort of Biology students of about 70 people, i guess half of them are really those who have real passion for bio while a certain percentage choses it as a soft option and few of them like me have half the passion of the hard-core biologist.

i m beggining to see less n less of my uni cum poly cliques as most of us have diverged into the specific concentrations tt we wanna do. i think i have already seen less of them since last semester where most of them simply pon the cell bio, bioinfo n soci lectures cos of the webcasting of lectures. last sem have been quite a difficult time for me to adapt to lonliness when less of yr frens attended lectures. i guess i have already prepared myself for this n to withstand the lonliness tt i felt sometimes.

nevertheless, i need to get my passion going! passion going to school. tough.

Change

I dislike pple saying that, "Hey, u haven change much over the yrs." esp from a guy's mouth. What is this man? At least should say that i become prettier la~ lol~ it was meant to be a joke by the way. yea~ i know~ i became fatter, gained more weight over the years. perhaps, that is why pple chose to avoid such sensitive words so as to avoid hurting me. They had took pity in my feelings by saying that i haven change much when in the actual fact, i had already but in a negative way. lol~

Yea~ then in that case, these friends were definately kind enuff not to point out the truth to me. If they really say i became uglier, i will tell them that they're just like me too~ haa~ Or perhaps they really meant i haven change a lot cos on tt day, i just din decorate my face with makeup. hmmm~ thats y they din see the beautiful side of me. yea~ u can now go puke first i know. lol~

Come on~ pple change over the yrs. Of course, thats just not in appearance wise, but the character as well. Perhaps, its only a matter for the better or for worse but obviously i m not in a position to judge a person when i could be no better than the person morally. It is just sometimes, it occurs to u tt some habits tt u know yr frens dislike few yrs ago, had now became one of their habits too. Isn't life full of irony? Who knows one day (perhaps due to peer pressure which make me think tt its actually a norm), could make me change in a way tt i couldn't imagine myself to be?

Mr McDreamy

went and watch "Made of Honor" with sis last sat at the new cathay cinema at downtown east. i guess for most pple, this show may be just like the classical chick flick targetted at the female audience portraying of the stereotypical cinderella story. however, to me its rather sweet kinda show but sometimes certain scenes like when the maid-of-honor (male lead) crash into the church in order to win back his BFF, its kinda cliche la.

nevertheless, i still enjoy this kinda show provieded tt the male lead must be McDreamy... keke... Patrick Dempsey though he quite old but he still got some charisma esp in the show cos he looked much better than he was in "Enchanted". lol~ well, sometimes, its just tt u need this kinda show to de-stress cos u no need to bring yr brain into the cinema and u just enjoy the fairy-tale tt cld never happen in real-life.

Updates about Last Week

hmmmm~ want to know more about my life? i guess no one wants to. haha~ but anyway~ after finishing mugging for exams, i have busy started working on this monday. thus, my life could be a little bit boring especially i do not find shopping for grocery being part of my daily life, any interesting. cos i guess no ones wants to know wat junk food i bought from cold storage and wat magazines i bought from the provisonal shop. perhaps, the only interesting part of my life could be the occasional meeting up with frens and shopping with my sister nia. so sad~ wat a boring life...

oh ya~ last friday, one interesting chapter of my life would be the going to chalet with my family. yea~ i noe i could see the smirk in yr face, "huh? u mean this is interesting" kinda smirk. anyway, thats at least wat i m looking forward to; to go shopping and watching movies like nobody business... its just a short 3 days 2 nights short getaway to the eastern part of S'pore (not even M'sia).

the first night, mum wanted to go to the T3 airport to walk around since we haven been there b4 and also shun bian go have dinner there. it was quite coincidental tt i saw yuting near the coffee bean there, especially u noe T3 is super huge lor. haha~ so good peiyan and yuting have the airport pass for T3 cos its so interesting and fun to shop at the transition lounge and departure hall. its so happening there as compared to the outside areas where visitors could only walk around, its pathetic, damn boring. anyway~ had a sumptous dinner at dian xiao'er and it was like the 2nd time in a week tt we're having dian xiao'er again... cos mum loves the roast duck over there... hahaa~

after walking around the airport as we went from t3 to t1 then to t2 and back to t3 via the sky train, we were damn tired so we headed back to chalet. mum and dad went back to chalet first while sis and i went on with our midnight movie date with each other. one word to desccribe my situation: pathetic. no choice when both of us have no bf but we have each other as company. haha~ *eeew*

anyway~ we catched the sneak preview of "Accuracy of Death" starring Takashi Kaneshiro. the movie is pretty nice, cos u've got a pretty male lead. he's just drop dead gorgeous. yea~ i noe i am damn surface cos i m gg for the movie cos of the male lead. but anyway~ suprisingly, the plot was pretty good. quite a touching movie towards the end and the movie got a kind of black humor if u appreciate it.

and the next day, sis and i went to shop again at Tampines Mall despite the fact that the day b4 we had went there to shop already and i have bought wat i wanted! bought the Ettusais zero pore pact foundation and the cleansing oil, medicated acne gentle make off. love the foundation cos its very light and natural. not too heavy on the skin unlike the kose foundation, sur white, i had which is pretty thick and thus not too suitable for putting on to school. i just love shopping for myself. bought a pair of heels tt looks like wedges.. haha..

yep~ the only happening part i had in my life is Shopping!! cos i admit i embrace the culture of cosumerism. and just like what anne raffin had said b4 in soci lecture, sometimes i just consume and consume and sees consumption as part of leisure. i gain pleasure in achieving my conquest after conquest of stuff... wahahaha~ and thats y i hv gotta slave for my own indulgence by starting to work so early on this monday~ *sobz* i hv no life which is mainly my own cause for it.

balenciaga = BFF

i promised johanna tt i wld update my blog...

yes~ jo had chosen to name us as balenciaga girls as quoted " not so O-R-D-I-N-A-R-Y." cos we definately not want to be named as the "coach girls" or the "gucci girls" or "LV girls". lol~

hahaha~ yes we are not so ordinary as we r BFF!! lol~ anyway its great meeting the girls having the girls nite out on 7th may. but then again, as blur Queen had just enjoyed her trip in perth and hv reached S'pore only at 4am on that day, it's a pity she couldn't joined us, otherwise it wld have been full attendance for the balenciaga girls.

yes~ blur Queen , you're part of the balenciaga girls. unless u dun want~ then, in that case u had proven yourself to be the QTC that jo had been talking about. rest assured, it is not a threat. lol~~

anyway~ we're joking about this issue about QTC. i was joking with jo that she could be also a QTC just tt we dun noe only, and her rxn was like "eh~ how do u noe tt i am a QTC?" And when jo accused me of being a QTC also, i gave her a "yea~ whatever~ haha~ " kinda rxn for her. Thats when we joke about the rxn of blur Queen as just like jo had said, we could all practically imagine watz the rxn tt blur Queen will give if we say she's a QTC... haha...

i guess sometimes its fun making fun of frens. but of course, the real fun comes in when u r making fun of good frens esp u prob have known each other for quite some time le. This then reminds me tt the head of balenciaga girls always bully me one!! of course i do retalliate also. wahahaha~

Internet-hates-me day

Wah lao eh~ today the internet really hates me. firstly, today we all had to meet up in school to do the bioinfo project. So, i just bring my laptop to school and do prj la.. haiz~ but who noes, i dunno why my lan card can't detect the lousy nus wireless network. i tried and tried to troubleshoot but to no avail. little do i noe that my "trouble-shooting" indeed shot some trouble to me at night.

So at night, after gg for the good friday service at jolene's church, i was about to upload the photos to my email so that tmr we can use the photos to do the soci prj. but when i tried to dial up my internet connection, i found out that there is some setting missing from my usual dial-up pop-up box. The info missing is under Dial: "p0,100" which i actually forgotten what is it initially.

Hence, thinking tt this shld be an easy task for the singnet helpdesk pple, i called the technical helpdesk trying to fish out what impt details in the setup was missing. i tried explaining to the bastard who picked up my call, but he just i think din catch wat i was saying and str8 away want me to go internet options and delete my dial-up connection! i was like wat the hell do u need to delete my connection setting when i only had one impt stuff missing and i honestly think tt as long i typed in the correct things i will be able to connect to internet.

that bastard after asking me to delete my modem dial up setting, asked me to type some stuff 192.168.1.254 into my internet address bar. i was even more pissed cos i cant see the logic doing this! and then later he asked me to set up a new connection and again it din work. so nvr mind, the bastard asked me to take my lan cable and plug out the usb cable. i was wat the fuck? i dun have a lan cable wat do u expect me to do? and he keep on telling me wat the lan cable looks like... Oh my gosh!!! then he told me to bring out the modem cd and uninstall the modem and reinstall it. then while waiting to restart my com.. he hung up on me... WAT the Fuck is the attitude!! and all the above took me like 30 min and i haven solve the problem

So the fury pam called again and this time i bet its the same person who had hung up on me who answered my phone now. they sound the same anyway. so this person, trying to speak with an accent and claims tt we have not spoken b4.. haiz~ watever la i just want my stuff to be fixed... so, i told him wat had happened to me b4 and wat he colleague did to me. in the end i tried to reinstall the cd back and the original dialer appears and the Dial: "p0,100" appears back on my screen! and after keying my password i can go online le.... that altogether took me 60 min in all b4 i get my internet fixed and with 2 calls to singnet.

i was like trying to ask him who the colleague is and ask him to check for me. but, he said he is not able to check who he is. please la... singnet is able to check tt at 8am in the morn today i had gone online... how can they not know who the guy was talking over the phone with me just now. i bet they make a record on every calls... think i stupid or wat...

well, that shows how good is the service of singnet in providing technical support... and how much the internet loves me today!! i only want to upload my photos but in the end took like 1 hr to do it... Great!

Choices

Life is about making choices. Thats why life sucks. I am so lost now esp when you have no idea what you really want to be next time. It's not about the issue that I can't fufil my ambition of being someone great. It's about what job you will do to make it as a career. The job that you really love doing it. Is that too much of me asking for this?



Felt especially depress today after going for the Career Fair at MPSH with Jol. The Career Fair got only a handful of companies and Government sector that were actually relevant to what we're studying now. E.g. MOE and A star. Whoa! It just made me felt that our degree is so worthless lor. Imagine me having my lousy results and was still thinking of working at A star. Hah! In my dreams!



Although working life is still roughly about 1 to 2 years away from me, but the worry for my future is overwhelming. Let's not talk about so far in the future. The next major choice I have to make soon is my Concentration. This thing have been worrying me since like last year when i used to blog about it. Wah Kao! I am still in my dilema after such a freaking long time. I decided to blog as this is one of my little crisis in my life now. I thought I would follow my interests in going to concentrate in Biology as I knew that was what I enjoyed studying the most. It was so fun learning Physiology and Biodiversity and these Bio modules I had score pretty well in it which gave me some confidence to want to do Bio. Somemore, heard from that Physio senior that Bio lessons were very slack just like Biod.



Yet, I am worried is that this concentration seems "worthless" as the focus now is always on Molecular Bio not the traditional one. Then I thought should I go and concentrate on MCB instead since it seems to be the most practical of all as it teaches all the very practical techniques that is more correlated to most labs and it seems to be the most rational choice as some of the modules were more alike as those we had learnt in Poly. But then, you can never compare Poly standards and Uni standards as my results for those Molecular Bio subjects are like shit compared to the good old days in Poly.



So, I decided to asked myself what job should I take on next time so that whatever I learnt now it would be more correlated to what I do next time. But I could only see blank. I even thought of going to do Accountancy in ACCA as part time student whilst working which I knew its going to be very tough. I have thought of all possibilities but nothing seems to be what I want for sure. I really don't know what is best for me and I envy those friends who had knew what they want in life.



I am beginning to hate the Science that I am doing now as initially when i entered NP to do BMS, I never knew that Science could be in this way. What I thought initially was that I want to do Biology in NP but obviously that was not the case after all. I had love Biology during Secondary School and now I kind of regret what I am studying now as it seems that we are going to have a very bleak future. Arts students could earn a general degree with such a easy life while Science students had to study like hell just to get an equivalent general degree. I hate it man!



I hate to make bad choices again in my life. This dilema is exactly just like 2 years ago when I was contemplating with which Uni to choose. Even now, I still question myself if I had made the right choice in studying Lifesciences and studying in NUS. It just scares me on that we got to choose our Concentration soon. Though this seems to be a minor issue, but it could vary your life to be in hell or in heaven in the next year at least.