::Disenchanted World::

Yesh!!! Finally...our ITP prj finish le...haha...its like everytime we do our prj we always miss by a bit of things tt we dun noe how to do...n dis time oso lah...but nvr mind...we juz bluff our way thru lorz...lolz...juz now did our prj in the llibrary den today i din really gotta study my cell bio...anywae rite...how to study when u r in a gp discussion room...n the noise level is power man...then somemore i still got my lappy infront of me...lolz...can't resist the temptation man...

Wah lao...tml i still hv to bring my stupid sister to go n make ic...cos yesterday when my father bring her down to lavender there...of all things she forgot to bring her birth cert...so clever arh she...then in the end i still hv to bring her to lavender again...kaoz...xian boh...

haiyo...i ve been in the library since 10.30 am le bah...think i m gg hme soon le...very xian...mayb go hme n study lorz...i realli hope i can concentrate on my studies den dun thiink of stupid things again...i mean honestly sometimes i juz cldn't bear to think of stupid things...then when i think of it...i feel damn depress...esp when things r not juz wat u hv imagined it to b...

Sometimes...i m juz impressed tt how imaginative tt i can b n how amazing my memory can be when its things related to him...for eg...last fri i pon my obc tutorial mah...den as we r gg to the library...we met jiang long...i dun noe him though he's in our LT one...but anyway he ask may if she noe wat is his no...den may gotta check her hp...i was like thinking to myself...i noe his no...i juz noe it lorz...den wat so amazing is tt i din go n memorise it...wherelse my close frens no i still gotta memorise then i can remember...i think it is really scary when i can't forget things tt r related to him...his expression...his words...occasions tt i met him not on purpose...so scary...

ya...i m realli imaginative esp i always like to imagine tt one day i can meet him on the rd...its like very fated like tt...well to my surprise...i did met him juz like wat i hv imagined...at the mrt platform at sembawang n its like pearlyn first spotted him...haha...scary rite i mean my imagination...lolz...then another so-called fated encounter is tt when i accompany jo to the jae in np...i wanted to show him to her but well...its juz tt he din join us for lunch...so ok fine...but i still not satisfied tt i m sure i can definately find him...den ofcourse can't la...den when we went to the convention centre...i met him at the entrance to the convention hall...i was like damn happy n jo n jing yun can even sense it...dis incident juz reminds me on how angela see want to look for atkash...but wait n wait still can't find him...n when u give up on finding him...he juz pops up out of nowhere...

ya...feel tt i m juz an idiot rite...cos juz can get so excited over seeing him...well i noe how incurable m i...ya...(**pearlyn can vouch for me**)...haha...its not tt i despo like tt...if i was i wld not like him again when dis semester starts...cos is juz plain stupid to be like tt...well...at least now...i think i wld not imagine soooo much le...to c him again on the streets???...dun say at the streets...now even in np...haha i dun even dare to think bout it now...cos is STUPID...ya i noe...

i juz hope...i mean i m serious...i really hope...one day...well i hope soooon i can get over this stupid thing...n i hope history wld not repeat itself again...