today i hv my first ever tution besides tutioning my sister...went to chinatown there to teach this primary 3 kid called cynthia...frm chij kellocks...this girl is not bad la...not very naughty lorz...but a bit slow la when i teached her math...cos i teaching her the topic time ma...a piece of hw i like spent 1 n 1/2 hrs to finish so time passes really fast...n its like this girl got 1 dog named miko which is really cute n friendly...cos tt small dog like keep standing on its 2 legs n placed the other 2 legs near the side of my leg for support...all right for the first lesson...

but there is some prob wif lying to the grandma of cynthia...cos its like this kid is act jo's fren introduce one...cos jo's fren is the neighbour of cynthia n den jo cant teach this girl cos she already hv 2 tution kids le...so she ask me if i want?...so i anything though its only 110 bucks for 8 lessons 2 subjects-maths n english...n quite little...but anyway since i needed $$$ so i m alright wif it...n its quite near for me...bout 20 to 30 min bus ride...den since jo already promised the granny tt she wanna teach cynthia...n last min she dun want...so i hv to like lie tt jo's was my sister n she ans the call for me...n when the granny ask me my surname i was like saying my surname is ang...cos tt was my first instinct...but aft tt split second...i was cursing n swearing deep down in my heart...n the nxt moment i quickly said i m ms lee...diaoz...damn drama lorz...xian diao...i m so stupid...aiya...watever...

wahahaha...i suddenly felt i m so clever...cos its like i cant believe tt i can fixed the damn modem by myself n fix the broadband...haha...so happy tt i finally hv my broadband le...yeah...

den today aft the microbio lab which is damn fast the pract...the ex-1m02s went to canteen 3 n wait for elya they all cos we wanted to celebrate both ziqin's n elya's belated bday...so we waited n waited n waited n finally elya came n we sang bday song for elya...thought tt they only celebrating the two gurl's bday but aft they hv sang elya's bday song n continue to sing the second time...i thought they singing for ziqin lorz...but its like they sang for me...wah liao...shock man...wat a surprise...really surprises me la...though its like almost over a month my bday but i really thnk them for celebrating my belated bday...haha...

wah lao eh...juz now scared me to death man...its like i act wanted to change the music of my blog...so i wanted to login to blogger...n its like i can type my user name n the pass word lorz...i thought mayb the webby jammed or wat...but wah liao...i end trask for twice n still the problem persist lorz...damn man...den aft tt almost 7 or 8 pops up occurs lorz...kaoz...scare me man...wah liao...den when i login to mel n c if the same thing happens...damn i still cant login lorz...so scared tt my keyboard spoil man...den when i want to close the window oso cannot...still gotta press control alt delete den can...wat the hell...dunno wat happen to my com le...xianz...

finally finish the hgd presentation...so i left pbl n spreadsheet prj...ok la...den juz now during the presentation...kns damn pek chek lorz...dun understand y pple some pple is so annoying...when pple is presenting y cant they juz give the speaker the basic respect in keeping their mouth shut for the basic courtesy...damn...xian diao lorz...but heng winnie help me to shhhh those pple man...kaoz...damn xian when doing intro...kns...really damn buai tahan lorz...

yOz...long time no blog le...now in sch waiting for dr lim to come for lect at 10...

i finally realise tt sometimes pple dun really mean wat they hv said...i used to b very gullible in the sense tt when pple hv said something tt they act dun mean anything...i always believed in wat they hv said...or in fact tt i chose to believe tt they hv meant wat they hv said...now...in fact yesterday i finally able to see clearly who are the ones who really meant wat they hv said n who dun...i finally dun feel anything when pple said those words tt they dun meant it frm the heart...

perhaps i juz cant understand y pple can say things tt they dun mean it...well...sometimes i admit saying nonescence can really lightens up the atmosphere around u...but is it necessary to do such things juz to b humourous...well...i dun think so...i believed tt having a sense of humour is a natural born gift frm god tt if u hv it...u wld hv it...n not joking bout the things tt u dun mean it...perhaps i dun feel it very funny...it juz will give the wrong signals to pple...esp when pple dun really noe u...

haiz...i m a very sad person...y do i say tt?...cos i m leading a pathetic life who hv a pathetic huge load of work waiting for me...i hv joked about one of my fren tt her life is always bout friendster n blogger...but think of it...wat about me?...my life is even more xianz tt i cant really always online cos i still very pathetic tt still using 56k...though i m gg to change broadband le...my life revoles around homemork...prj...sch...n really nothing much...

honestly i joined hi-club is basically to kill time...cos i basically got nowhere to go aft sch besides gg hme...haiz...xianz...well...it wld b slightly better for me tt at least on wed i can still go for gl training...haiz...xianz...n i still so pathetically hv to go watch movie on my own cos my fren cant make it last min...i m a movie-lover so honestly i dun really mind watching it myself...but i kuz feel tt i m very pathetic...cos my life only revolves so little things...n i still gotta go watch movie myelf...isn't is pathetic...ya i noe..i can jolly well dun watch movie alone...but wat m i gg to spend the rest of the time when i hv lied to my mom tt i wld b doing prj in sch till very late...

haiz...pathetic...but anyway the movie dodgeball was hilarious...ya always joking bout the balls...quite a nice movie la...esp ben stiller damn qian bian....

recently use a spyware doctor tt may sent me n found out tt i got 300 over infections in my lappy man...damn it...but luckily remove them le...

currently suffering frm emotional swings...i can b 1 min damn pek chek wif pple n 1 min very happy...i m damn sick of pple man...pple avoiding me...pple i very buai tahan...haiz...sch sux...y...is it like tt...y...haiz...y is it i m a virgo...tt i always c the flaws in other pple...y is it...i m so narrow-minded tt i juz cant stand some other pple...y...tell me y someone...y...y...y...y is it life sux???...

fucked up...damn fucked up...its like when gg hme tt time rayn asked me why my face black black? i ji tao din ans him cos i m really bad mood...damn...damn...damn...damn fucked up man...really very angry...i already suffer frm mood swings these few days...n today is the day when i really explode...damn it...

today got immune pract...doing the elisa test tt we hv left off last wk...dunno is it tt the pract too diff...or is it too long...its like everyone is damn blur throughout the pract tt a lot of pple is asking dr lim bout the pract...its like can c frm dr lim's face is black cos her face is black one lorz...den i oso dun dare to ask her bout the pract...damn fan(3) lorz its like pple kept asking n asking bout the pract...haiz...make me damn irritated...den finally got back the immune common test paper...alright la...heng heng still at least got a B man...and anyway the highest in our class is 78...so quite satisfied wif the test lorz...anyway is expected one lorz cos immune is really damn difficult lorz...

den juz now went for the instructor's meeting...alright...den got into the same training grp as andrew...at first is me n beibei same grp but they say cannot same class in the same grp so i change wif kat...den its like so qiao(3) xiao fei got the same grp as andrew...den andrew said couple cannot in the same grp so fei exchange wif kat n kat exchange andrew wif beibei...den they keep suaning abang n kat...damn funny n its like gary is scolding zhi hui pig n zhi hui shoot back at gary calling him turtle...n gary is like keep asking pple to jump off la...kns...meeting end quite late la...bout 8 den end...

today do the pqs sg prj until siao...kaoz...never b4 did i do prj until so pek chek....haiz...anyway so far the prj is still alright lorz...but haiz...even aft this pqs thingy...i still got lotsa prj to do...esp my amb pbl...we haven start yet...wah...siao liao...xianz....so far i still got pract spreadsheet prj, hgd prj,amb show n tell, amb pbl...then still got a lot of test for eg.maths cct, spreadsheet pract test, maths pract test...damn xianz...so many assignments gg to due every week...wat the hell...

today went to nus the cytogenetics lab for our human genetics pract...not bad lorz...learnt quite a bit la...esp able to c for myself wat is FISH all about...its not the fish tt we eat...but flourescent in-situ hybridization...its totally cool man to c how they do the FISH n oso how they do karyotyping....they use to do karyotyping manually...but noe they got a software to do it on computer...n i think one FISH expt cost about $250...n the whole com system is about $120,000...cost about 1 lexus like tt... anyway today felt terrible la...got a big headache while i was at the biazzare...damn xianz...haiz...

08/09/2004 wed
today got amb presentation...finally one presentation down le...wahahaha...presentation is alright...but its like everyone gotta ask one qn during the q & a sessions...xianz...den aft tt went for maths lect...n its like during the lect..xiao ling is reading beibei's palm...den its like during the brk...everyone is looking for her to read their palms to noe their fortune...haha...no la...xiao ling told us tt by looking at the sides of the palm..u can noe if u r devoted or flirty...u noe...the love life...den its like she said i m a very chuan(1) yi (1) person which i think is very true...well ya...cos its like i got only 1 very prominient line n 2 very light lines on the sides of my palm...the prominient line means tt i m devoted to the one i love...n the 2 light lines means tt i ll got 2 relationship tt wld touch n go type...haha...well i dunno if this is true...anyway..heard frm wat jolene said...xiao ling's prediction is pretty accurate for her...den its like even kim tee n cabin came over n ask xiao ling to look at their palms for them....haha...kns...

today went to bugis aft sch to watch GARFIELD wif my sister...finally able to enjoy aft the damn pqs test...the stupid pqs test...dun understand y tt stupid test oso need to hv sooo many sets of test paper...kaoz...very lame lorz... anyway aft the spreadsheet class...went to bugis wif sis to watch garfield...wah lao...damn hilarious arh...tt lazy fat cat...damn funny lorz...its like its so cute got its own little bed...n it is damn cute n wld noe how to wake the owner up one...he likes to eat lagsane...n it is a brilliant dancer...noes how to dance very well...n can even teach odi how to dance...its like a one-man show like tt...but a bit show la the show...only 1 hr 15 min...but its quite nice la...likes the way he always bully odi the dog...n when he kena "kicked out" by his owner jon he is damn pathetic...but is still funny the way he is wang(4) en(1) fu(4) yi(4) towards odi who sympathetise him n went outside n accompany him...a really cute cat...enjoyed the show very much...

haiz...i m damn xianz...still gotta study for the pqs test...wat the f*%@ is tt...kaoz...very xianz...forgotten tt today suppose to go to work wif may...n when she called i m already xian 1/2 liao...so din go to work cos its a bit far lorz...in pasir ris leh...well...i shld hv gone lorz...cos if i hv gone to work i wld not quarrel wif my mom again...damn pissed off wif her...aiya...wateva... sometimes dunno is i unlucky or wat...everytime things wld go wrong in my presence one lorz...or sometimes is like when i hv thought tt everything wld run smoothly or it wld go in my way...things wld surely cork up or it wld not b the same as wat i hv thought...i dunno y things always happen in such a way...or mayb i m a tiger gurl...who supposedly to b very unlucky as gurls tt born in the yr of tiger r supposed to b unlucky...i m very xian wif tt everytime i wld make a decision tt i wld always regret...so its like i noe i always make very bad decisions...haiz...i m a bad decision maker...haiz...saded...my life is full of regrets...i really wonder y???

today wanted to go to ding tai feng at paragon to hv lunch wif may, yifang, ziqin, jolene...den its like at the bus stop while waiting for the bus we saw yu ting n her fren ming hua there...cos they pon the hgd pract ma...so in the end we song(1) yong(4) them to go to ding tai feng wif us for lunch...yu ting was like so enthu abt gg there since tt dis restaurant is really famous not only in Singapore but oso in HK n Taiwan...

anyway when we reach orchard it rain a bit...den ask wen hui if he is joining us but he say no cos hougang raining heavily...so ok we hv an all gurls outing...anyway...the food there at ding tai feng is really awesome...reaally nice...esp u once in a blue moon eat once...its ok...in terms of the price la...ok la...not very ex...affordable la...ate 1 prawn dumpling noodle,den share i serving of xiao long bao n oso i bowl of dumplings wif may...wah...very full arh...

aft eating for very long until we lost track of time...we chiong to cine la...cos we catching the 3.10 show...we watched "the cinderella story"...kaoz...damn nice the show...cos me like to live in a world of fantasy one lorz...haha...like to day dream ma...ya as expected the ending is a happy one...n the male lead chad michael murray is so darn cute...omg...i m becoming hua chi again...haha...he is sooooo sweet...n handsome...n hillary duff is quite pretty oso...very nice la...mayb some may feel tt it is a very fu(1) qian(3)--very surface...but paiseh i oso very surface one la...its soooo nice n funny esp the stepmother n stepsisters r damn idiotic...haha...really nice la the show i think...

aft tt went to ps to sell my hp...but they gave me $140 which is very little den i called another hp dealer in commonwealth n they gave me a better price so i rush frm ps to commonwealth...long time no go commonwealth le...last time used to go there very often cos my sec sch used to be there temporarily for 2 n half yrs ma...managed to find my way there n they gave me $160 so i take it la...better than nth man...den now using the lousy n5210...haiz...saded...den dunno when can change hp oso...no $$$...saded...

damn it...i cant fix my blog title thingy...its like i tries to change my blog tiltle tt winnie hv taught me...but i still get like untitled document as the title of my blog...hmmph....-____-" haiz...xianz...act today wanted to bring my lappy to go to sch to do prj one...but its like today i gotta go n borrow the blazer so i decided tt i wld not do amb prj today wif yiu yiu cos i dun want bring my lappy...damn heavy lorz...siao arh... den today the amb pract is very short lorz cos we r supposedly gg to do riboprinting...but since our sch got a riboprinter machine tt cost about $300,000 we din do riboprinting manually nor did we use the machine to do riboprinting...cos its like each time u do a riboprint...it cost about $4,000 due to the reagents n RE tt is very ex...so its like jona, our lab tech intro us to our riboprinter n how to use it...n she said only 2 of the machine is present in whole of Singapore...so its like ngee ann n nus hv it...so its like if other pple want to do ribopronting they gotta pay to use our facilities....lol...the company probably juz gotta earn frm the cost of the reagent enuff le...since only 2 machines were sold...haha amb pract ended pretty early...may went for gl interview den me n winnie went to library since we din wanna eat...rot there n use com there...aft tt went to borrow blazer...the blazer is damn old lorz n the colour is damn sucky...gosh...tml gotta wear it for urshering for the biotec fair...damn it...xianz...gotta stand for long hrs le...my poor legs...esp still gotta wear the damn court shoes...haiz...

27-aug-2004 friday today went out wif bennie n johanna to celebrate my bday in advance...cos ben gotta go out wif her fren on mon ba...anyway as usual we meet at orchard n we accompany bennie for lunch first b4 we went to buy movie tiks for "13 going on 30"...managed to buy tiks for the 5.30 show...meanwhile we go downstairs the cine there to take neoprints cos its like never a single time we 3 got take pics tgt la...the first time pict we took was much better compared to the second pict tt we took...cos the second time when we took the pict we 3 are damn sotong tt we forgot to choose the photos...dam it...it was damn saded lorz...anyway the first pict r great...esp the last shot when we 3 r like hua chi like tt...or mayb i was the one more hua chi...lol... the movie was quite nice lorz...funny i wld say...and the ending is great...haha...really funny esp jennifer garner...aft the show we went taka walk walk cos i wanted to buy perlini's silver...then the 2 wanteed me to pick one accessories i like as a bday present...ok i chose a cross pendent...den aft tt we went for dinner at the thai express at paragon there...not bad lorz the food...the tomyam soup is damn nice...very sour n spicy...(*drooling*)...i hv the pineapple rice which is not bad la... act aft dinner we wanted to go swenson's to eat earthquake cos the 2 want to treat me for bday present...but queue too long so instead we went to heerens first n walk walk...there ben saw a hot pink skirt at 37 degrees but she din buy...wanted to look somemore b4 buying...but aft tt when we came back the shop already close le...too bad...den is like we saw fir at heerens the stage there...kaoz...she sang fly away...damn shiok n nice...but we went off cos its quote late le...anyway tml oso can hear her sing cos the z pop concert ma...den went back to swenson's n is like even more pple queueing lorz...n in the end we went hme n gotta eat ice-cream another day le...haha... 28-aug-2004 saturday went for the z pop concert...me n my sis went to queue at 11 cos jing yun n her fren was there since 9 n they gotta leave for a while to go yida's fan club thingy...so me n my sis went earlier to queue for them...sun was blazing hot...damn xianz...but well it was all worthwhile to get a glimpse of energy...waited till bout 2.30 bennie then came...n itold her she wld regret for not bringing umbrella...haha...cos damn hot... jy join us at round 3.30 n we went in at 4 lorz...those pple r really ks man...once we gotten in...everyone was like running for good seats...haha...siao... but i oso very siao...den energy came out at round 5.15 n they reharsed a bit la...energy is so shuai lorz...kaoz...they really look very diff as they r in picts...can drool man...damn cute lorz they all...then we stay in the front lorz...n it was damn stuffy n thirsty cos we not enuff water ma...damn xianz lorz in the middle...when we hv stood for very long time...den when fir finally came out we were like crazy like tt....damn shuang to hear them sing lorz...we went back aft fir cos really too tired liao...anyway i saw energy during the reharsal le...so its ok anyway...haha...shiok arh....

juz now study amb until i want to slp lorz...i was literally dozing off...so i now online for a while b4 gg to study again...now me in the library the internet cafe there...cos today in the morn i cant book the prj room...damn it...so many prj room...but sooooo many pple using...came to sch at 8.45 n cant find a room...wat the fuck is this...anyway i went to internet cafe cos there got place ma...n decide to study there cos can eat ma...den may told me she not coming to sch cos her hse raining heavily...haiz...xianz...cos i like alone using one table...xian diao...

yesterday i oso went to sch n study...met a couple of pple...like jia li...jy...junius...cabin...zhen you...zhi hui...yong quan...n erm...ling ling...lol...so lucky sia...tot it was my lucky day cos i met so many pple in library...but well it wasn't...*saded* recently find one guy quite cute lorz...(*ya dis is a diff guy frm whom i hv been talking along*)...in the sense he very funny la...but haiz...i saded by the fact tt i noe he want to chio one gurl...n he like came to study wif her...haiz...haha...den i met wif jy to collect the money for jo n chat wif her a bit la...n share my woes wif her...haiz...haha...anyway this is nth since i hv been thru one of my most saded period last wk...i m perfectly ok now liao...yeah...(^-^)> den now in prj room in the library to study lorz...now waiting for may...cos studying tgt ma...so i use the time to blog first ma....

wah kaoz...damn xianz...it's always like tt when i go to OG pple's pk there to work...ya as usual...dun really noe the pple there except 1 or 2 who can still recognise me...no pple one...no biz one...n its like when i go work there n its like only half an hr hv passed n i was damn xianz liao...haiz...but for the sake of $$$ i still go there to work...haiz...no choice la... den today the IMM pract in the morn was quite easy lah...den may leave me aeroplane...fang(4) wo(3) fei(1) ji(1)...din come for pract...but luckily bei bei still got come...or else i wld b like yiu yiu hv to do the expt by himself...ya...den we got back our last pract ws...dr lim was like add a comment on my pract ws saying tt if nxt time she still finds tt my ans n may's ans r identical again, we wld get a zero...kaoz...so ok...may, nxt time we copy must change words liao...cant copy all the same liao...perhaps we gotta copy frm diff sources...haha...hmmph...dun like dr lim not cos of this incident...but oso the fact tt she cant teach n her lect r damn boring...yes she might b gd in pract classes....but too bad...she sux in teaching... haiz...very xianz arh...gotta study again liao during the study brk...its like i juz finish my exams n now so fast common test again...time really flies...n soon i wld b like in yr 3 n aft tt i wld b working le...or better still go on to further studies...y does time passed so quickly...i missed yr 1 despite a lot of things hv happened...i missed how stupid we used to b...i missed the trial camp n the foc camp...the fun we used to hv...i m sick of yr 2...no fun at all one...all study n study...kaoz...i m very sick of it...i m very xian...i wonder y pple can treat me ai(4) li(3) bu(4) li(3) one...it wasn't like tt in yr 1...haha...time changes...it juz make me xin(10 hui(1) yi(4) leng(3)...disappointment juz overwhelms me...perhaps i think too much again...but too bad so sad datz who i m ....a emotional freak...a cry baby who wld cry when i m sad...when i m touched...n when im angry...i can b one min laughing like crazy n the nxt min b very sorry for myself...sdometimes i dun even noe who i act is...a pathetic pig???...sh sux...exams sux more...life is even worst....