Monkey Behaviour

Documentaries by Sir David Attenborough have been part of my daily life since I embarked on my third year in uni. Majoring in Biology had enabled me to see biodiversity in a whole new perspective. Now, I am so into the documentaries that I will watch them every Wednesday in Okto Animal Night. Yesterday's episode of the Life in Mammals was very engaging in the sense its super related to my behavioral bio module. Instead of the example on birds shown during the lecture documentaries, yesterday was about monkeys exhibiting similar behaviour as some birds.


It's amazing that how different species of monkeys co-operate with each other for anti-predation alliances and not squabbling within themselves for food (since they are on different diets). Very entertaining as you'll see cases of social hierachy and infidelity amongst the monkeys which is so so similar to some of human's behaviour especially these are the intelligent mammals. They are indeed social climbers. lol~


http://www.videosift.com/video/David-Attenborough-Life-of-Mammals-9-The-Social-Climbers

Singlish

I have come across this pod cast by Mr Brown recently which is rather intriguing in regards of the recent article where MM lee says, Chinese S’poreans should focus on learning Mandarin well.


http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20090317/tap-920-singaporeans-focus-learning-mand-231650b.html


Yes, I agree that we should buck up on our Mandrain since most of us did not speak proper Mandrain or English in school. Yet, how many of us are truly billinguals?


This is one of the master piece by Mr Brown recently that is absolutely hilarious despite I have already listened it for two times. Well, Mr Brown had portrayed the future SGreans who are unable to speak Singlish, but well-versed in both English and Chinese. Look at what happen in year 2020 when these future SGreans enter army without knowing the army language, that is basically Singlish.


However, I must warn you first that the pod cast may contain certain disturbing languages that is already sensored by them. Don't treat it too seriously as it's suppose to be light-hearted.
Enjoy!


http://www.mrbrownshow.com/2009/03/30/the-mrbrown-show-army-fighting-language/


However, if you have time you might want to read this paricular blog post which also have some rather interesting view about his thought on Singlish which unfortunately had pointed out some real life situation. So true.

http://myworldandme.wordpress.com/2009/03/18/mm-lee-says-speak-more-mandarin-i-say-speak-more-dialect-and-singlish/

But still, the ability to speak proper English would definately bring us more benefits in many situations especially in foreign land where nobody can understand our Singaporean language. This is what most of us knew deep down in our hearts although we might still be embracing Singlish in our daily life. Anyway, it's just my 2 cents worth. ;p

Handicapped

I am feeling really depress after the doucumentary presentation in behavioural bio. Its not about the comments regarding the quality our group's documentary 'cos we are not experts in making videos and we dun have the start of the art recording devises unlike one of the group which had the help of a sony HD camecorder . Rather I just felt I am damn stupid. Firstly, I had no questions in mind in the Q n A session for the group presenting. Secondly, some of the questions that the class had for our group, are some questions that I might not have thought about it. Hence, even the class posted their questions to our group, I did not really answer as one the group member is rather good at answering such questions and he got the facts well.


It just dawned on me why is that I did not have any questions to ask? Is it because I did not understand what the documentaries of other group was saying or I simply did not have a questioning mind. Obviously, I belong to the latter. Being a Science student, I ought to be ashamed of myself. Some of the TAs and Dr Lim had quite good questions regarding the aspect on how the behaviour of the animal relates to conservation issues. Such concept have been brought up in class during the previous lecture where we had 2 hrs of documentary. Yet, I am too slow to see such interlinks as I am not accustomed to think "out of the box" which is especially crucial in the topic of conservation.


These real level 4 bio students caught the concept really fast when they started blasted on the implications and adaptive functions of behaviour. Its not just about the fact that I am a level 3 bio student taking a level 4 core module that puts me at a disadvantage (*eventhough you do meet some of the legendary names in the "U05XXXXX" cohort taking the module*), rather I am feeling increasingly handicapped in my language abilities. I know I am not good in expressing myself be it in terms of writing or oral skills. This probably explains why I prefer to keep quiet and not ask any questions fearing that my poor language skills would be the laughing stock of others. This feeling of insecure made me question my ability if I can make it through my Honours year. I know I gotta put in all my best in my final year, yet I can anticipate that my effort might just not be enough to write a good thesis since I knew I lacked of the analytical capability that these current level 4 seniors have.


The most sadenning of all is that perhaps what I can do is only to memorise information that is readily available in the open-book exam. Even with this only capability of mine is now failing to work as time passes by.

Stress Management

What would u do in times of stress? When I am feeling some sort of stressed-out, I will buy more random stuff which ranges from stationaries, some IT gadget to food. However, if I am really too stress and ultimately getting ill from meeting up certain major dead lines such as exams, I will be freaking in a "bo-chap" mood. Such emotions will always arise in every semestral exams and the consequence of such actions ranges from no make-up (not even with foundation) to school to can't be bothered to go to canteen to have lunch.


I must say that some of the random stuff that I always buy is really redundant. 'cos although I know that my current pencil case is too small to put more stationaries and the fact that I have too much stationaries at home that could fit into my teeny-weeny pencil case, I still end up buying more pens and pilot highlighter refills from the co-op. It seems that I always feel that I will always need more pens for exams and that I got this feeling that the new pens that I am going to buy would enables me to write much better and faster during the exams.


Also, very recently I just bought a new SD card and card reader for my camera. Although I know that I'm not really in need of such gadgets, but I still buy it. Such examples include my impulse in buying a 2GB thumbdrive. I must admit such impulse will only be acted out if these IT stuff are in promotion la... when a 2GB SD card cost only $9.90 and a 2GB thumbdrive only cost about around 12 bucks at most. I am not too sure if these are good deals, 'cos in my opinion they're rather cheap already. And this mindset probably sets me buying such random stuff when I feel I need to really buy something.


But all these are not so sinful as compared to me dropping by the supermarket near my house to but tidbits. I must admit during the holidays when I spent most of the time working, I would drop by the supermarket after working to buy tidbits. Although working in part-time admin position is not as stress as studying, I still find it physically draining at the end of the day. Hence, thats when I started the habit of buying tidbits. Obviously, such unhealthy habits did have an undesirable effect on my weight. The longer I work (meaning as a promoter or admin assistant), the more weight I gained. So i figure out that the money that I have earned correlates to the weight that I have gained. 'cos beside the stuff that I buy, I would spent most of my remaining salary in eating out with frens and also tidbits! Gosh!


But I must comment myself that from starting of this sem, I have not buy tidbits for quite a long time. So, I am now in a ''quit a tidbit" program initiated by myself. Hopefully, I can lose some pounds from it. Subsequently, I am going to launch a "quit soft drinks" program. Wish me luck!


Oh yes, I am going to buy one more red and blue pen in co-op later 'cos tmr is my bahasa test.

Study

I really have to start studying now especially for my Bahasa Indonesia. I am really clueless on how to write the essay for the coming test. Hence, there's the previous post written in BI which was my little effort in trying to practice some writing.


Yes, I know i haven't been blogging for too long. But, there isn't anything interesting in my life to blog about anyway. Haha. It is already week 7 of school any yet for the past 6 weeks, I have been going out watching movies. oh dear?... I am really so into the movies. I practically didn't want to miss any good movies. Well, my best movie partner have been my adik perempuan, my younger sister, or else it would be me myself watching the movie alone. I don't see anything wrong in watching movies by myself since you can't really talk in the cinema. haha.


Yup, i gotta really brush up my English since I need to write good thesis for the graduating year. Hence, I would need to put in some effort in blogging in the attempt of practising my writing skills.

Belajar

Saya di kampus tetapi hari ini tidak kelas. Saya sedang belajar Bahasa Indonesia di perpustakaan karena minggu depan ada ujian. Saya bisa berbahasa Indonesia dengan lumayan tapi tidak tahu menulis esai. Mengapa?

Saya tidak waktu cukup karena minggu lalu, saya pergi ke bioskop dengan adik perempuan saya. Kami menonton film bersama-sama dengan Bennie dan Jing Yun. Sesudah movie, kami dan Johanna pergi ke restoran di "The Cathay" makan malam. Saya suka bercakap-cakap dengan teman-teman saya. Minggu lalu, Saya punya menonton tiga movie baru. (Such as, He's just not that into you, K20 dan Suspect X.) "Suspect X" dan "He's just not that into you" itu bagus sekali. Saya senang sekali menonton film.

Saya ingin sekali pandai Bahasa Indonesia dan Inggris. Saya mau menulis thesis tahun depan tapi bisa berbahasa Inggris kurang lancar!

Near 3 Months

Yes, it have been near 3 months since i last updated. Guess wat? That's roughly how long was my last school vacation. So what have I been doing in the past 3 months? Basically, i have like went back to CSC and have been continously working week after week after week and before i knew it, my vacation is coming to an end already.

Besides, the little short break i took to go to genting with my family, i practically am working everyday tgt with jol in my office though we're doing different things most of the time. Well, i really envy some of my lucky frens who managed to go for the summer exchange programme. Some to the US, Canada, others to Korea. i must admit during this summer vacation though i did not go anywhere else, i still managed to meet up a couple of frens for a couple of times and had some very good time tgt especially with TBG.

Also, i have managed to watch many many movies during this summer vacation and as u all noe one of my love is movies! Many many good movies were screen recently and i think i had almost every week or so have been catching the movies either with frens or with my greatest companion, my sister who can be quite tiresome too. *oopS*

Besides, i have also finished my conquest of 6 seasons of sex and the city at tudou.com as i totally like tt movie a lot tt i perservere to watch thru the whole series. With all those witty conversations the best frens have had really spiced up my life a little. As u can see, my life is tt boring tt it wasn't worth blogging most of the time. And on the other time, i was simply too tired to blog after work and on weekends i was too busy gg out.

Yeap~ i have decided that i wld concentrate on Biology as i guess that is where my passion lies and it must be kept going. Perhaps, like Hugh Tan had said, biology is not a soft option though i personally thinks it really is a soft option for me as compared to studying bms modules. And out of the one cohort of Biology students of about 70 people, i guess half of them are really those who have real passion for bio while a certain percentage choses it as a soft option and few of them like me have half the passion of the hard-core biologist.

i m beggining to see less n less of my uni cum poly cliques as most of us have diverged into the specific concentrations tt we wanna do. i think i have already seen less of them since last semester where most of them simply pon the cell bio, bioinfo n soci lectures cos of the webcasting of lectures. last sem have been quite a difficult time for me to adapt to lonliness when less of yr frens attended lectures. i guess i have already prepared myself for this n to withstand the lonliness tt i felt sometimes.

nevertheless, i need to get my passion going! passion going to school. tough.

Change

I dislike pple saying that, "Hey, u haven change much over the yrs." esp from a guy's mouth. What is this man? At least should say that i become prettier la~ lol~ it was meant to be a joke by the way. yea~ i know~ i became fatter, gained more weight over the years. perhaps, that is why pple chose to avoid such sensitive words so as to avoid hurting me. They had took pity in my feelings by saying that i haven change much when in the actual fact, i had already but in a negative way. lol~

Yea~ then in that case, these friends were definately kind enuff not to point out the truth to me. If they really say i became uglier, i will tell them that they're just like me too~ haa~ Or perhaps they really meant i haven change a lot cos on tt day, i just din decorate my face with makeup. hmmm~ thats y they din see the beautiful side of me. yea~ u can now go puke first i know. lol~

Come on~ pple change over the yrs. Of course, thats just not in appearance wise, but the character as well. Perhaps, its only a matter for the better or for worse but obviously i m not in a position to judge a person when i could be no better than the person morally. It is just sometimes, it occurs to u tt some habits tt u know yr frens dislike few yrs ago, had now became one of their habits too. Isn't life full of irony? Who knows one day (perhaps due to peer pressure which make me think tt its actually a norm), could make me change in a way tt i couldn't imagine myself to be?

Mr McDreamy

went and watch "Made of Honor" with sis last sat at the new cathay cinema at downtown east. i guess for most pple, this show may be just like the classical chick flick targetted at the female audience portraying of the stereotypical cinderella story. however, to me its rather sweet kinda show but sometimes certain scenes like when the maid-of-honor (male lead) crash into the church in order to win back his BFF, its kinda cliche la.

nevertheless, i still enjoy this kinda show provieded tt the male lead must be McDreamy... keke... Patrick Dempsey though he quite old but he still got some charisma esp in the show cos he looked much better than he was in "Enchanted". lol~ well, sometimes, its just tt u need this kinda show to de-stress cos u no need to bring yr brain into the cinema and u just enjoy the fairy-tale tt cld never happen in real-life.

Updates about Last Week

hmmmm~ want to know more about my life? i guess no one wants to. haha~ but anyway~ after finishing mugging for exams, i have busy started working on this monday. thus, my life could be a little bit boring especially i do not find shopping for grocery being part of my daily life, any interesting. cos i guess no ones wants to know wat junk food i bought from cold storage and wat magazines i bought from the provisonal shop. perhaps, the only interesting part of my life could be the occasional meeting up with frens and shopping with my sister nia. so sad~ wat a boring life...

oh ya~ last friday, one interesting chapter of my life would be the going to chalet with my family. yea~ i noe i could see the smirk in yr face, "huh? u mean this is interesting" kinda smirk. anyway, thats at least wat i m looking forward to; to go shopping and watching movies like nobody business... its just a short 3 days 2 nights short getaway to the eastern part of S'pore (not even M'sia).

the first night, mum wanted to go to the T3 airport to walk around since we haven been there b4 and also shun bian go have dinner there. it was quite coincidental tt i saw yuting near the coffee bean there, especially u noe T3 is super huge lor. haha~ so good peiyan and yuting have the airport pass for T3 cos its so interesting and fun to shop at the transition lounge and departure hall. its so happening there as compared to the outside areas where visitors could only walk around, its pathetic, damn boring. anyway~ had a sumptous dinner at dian xiao'er and it was like the 2nd time in a week tt we're having dian xiao'er again... cos mum loves the roast duck over there... hahaa~

after walking around the airport as we went from t3 to t1 then to t2 and back to t3 via the sky train, we were damn tired so we headed back to chalet. mum and dad went back to chalet first while sis and i went on with our midnight movie date with each other. one word to desccribe my situation: pathetic. no choice when both of us have no bf but we have each other as company. haha~ *eeew*

anyway~ we catched the sneak preview of "Accuracy of Death" starring Takashi Kaneshiro. the movie is pretty nice, cos u've got a pretty male lead. he's just drop dead gorgeous. yea~ i noe i am damn surface cos i m gg for the movie cos of the male lead. but anyway~ suprisingly, the plot was pretty good. quite a touching movie towards the end and the movie got a kind of black humor if u appreciate it.

and the next day, sis and i went to shop again at Tampines Mall despite the fact that the day b4 we had went there to shop already and i have bought wat i wanted! bought the Ettusais zero pore pact foundation and the cleansing oil, medicated acne gentle make off. love the foundation cos its very light and natural. not too heavy on the skin unlike the kose foundation, sur white, i had which is pretty thick and thus not too suitable for putting on to school. i just love shopping for myself. bought a pair of heels tt looks like wedges.. haha..

yep~ the only happening part i had in my life is Shopping!! cos i admit i embrace the culture of cosumerism. and just like what anne raffin had said b4 in soci lecture, sometimes i just consume and consume and sees consumption as part of leisure. i gain pleasure in achieving my conquest after conquest of stuff... wahahaha~ and thats y i hv gotta slave for my own indulgence by starting to work so early on this monday~ *sobz* i hv no life which is mainly my own cause for it.

balenciaga = BFF

i promised johanna tt i wld update my blog...

yes~ jo had chosen to name us as balenciaga girls as quoted " not so O-R-D-I-N-A-R-Y." cos we definately not want to be named as the "coach girls" or the "gucci girls" or "LV girls". lol~

hahaha~ yes we are not so ordinary as we r BFF!! lol~ anyway its great meeting the girls having the girls nite out on 7th may. but then again, as blur Queen had just enjoyed her trip in perth and hv reached S'pore only at 4am on that day, it's a pity she couldn't joined us, otherwise it wld have been full attendance for the balenciaga girls.

yes~ blur Queen , you're part of the balenciaga girls. unless u dun want~ then, in that case u had proven yourself to be the QTC that jo had been talking about. rest assured, it is not a threat. lol~~

anyway~ we're joking about this issue about QTC. i was joking with jo that she could be also a QTC just tt we dun noe only, and her rxn was like "eh~ how do u noe tt i am a QTC?" And when jo accused me of being a QTC also, i gave her a "yea~ whatever~ haha~ " kinda rxn for her. Thats when we joke about the rxn of blur Queen as just like jo had said, we could all practically imagine watz the rxn tt blur Queen will give if we say she's a QTC... haha...

i guess sometimes its fun making fun of frens. but of course, the real fun comes in when u r making fun of good frens esp u prob have known each other for quite some time le. This then reminds me tt the head of balenciaga girls always bully me one!! of course i do retalliate also. wahahaha~

Internet-hates-me day

Wah lao eh~ today the internet really hates me. firstly, today we all had to meet up in school to do the bioinfo project. So, i just bring my laptop to school and do prj la.. haiz~ but who noes, i dunno why my lan card can't detect the lousy nus wireless network. i tried and tried to troubleshoot but to no avail. little do i noe that my "trouble-shooting" indeed shot some trouble to me at night.

So at night, after gg for the good friday service at jolene's church, i was about to upload the photos to my email so that tmr we can use the photos to do the soci prj. but when i tried to dial up my internet connection, i found out that there is some setting missing from my usual dial-up pop-up box. The info missing is under Dial: "p0,100" which i actually forgotten what is it initially.

Hence, thinking tt this shld be an easy task for the singnet helpdesk pple, i called the technical helpdesk trying to fish out what impt details in the setup was missing. i tried explaining to the bastard who picked up my call, but he just i think din catch wat i was saying and str8 away want me to go internet options and delete my dial-up connection! i was like wat the hell do u need to delete my connection setting when i only had one impt stuff missing and i honestly think tt as long i typed in the correct things i will be able to connect to internet.

that bastard after asking me to delete my modem dial up setting, asked me to type some stuff 192.168.1.254 into my internet address bar. i was even more pissed cos i cant see the logic doing this! and then later he asked me to set up a new connection and again it din work. so nvr mind, the bastard asked me to take my lan cable and plug out the usb cable. i was wat the fuck? i dun have a lan cable wat do u expect me to do? and he keep on telling me wat the lan cable looks like... Oh my gosh!!! then he told me to bring out the modem cd and uninstall the modem and reinstall it. then while waiting to restart my com.. he hung up on me... WAT the Fuck is the attitude!! and all the above took me like 30 min and i haven solve the problem

So the fury pam called again and this time i bet its the same person who had hung up on me who answered my phone now. they sound the same anyway. so this person, trying to speak with an accent and claims tt we have not spoken b4.. haiz~ watever la i just want my stuff to be fixed... so, i told him wat had happened to me b4 and wat he colleague did to me. in the end i tried to reinstall the cd back and the original dialer appears and the Dial: "p0,100" appears back on my screen! and after keying my password i can go online le.... that altogether took me 60 min in all b4 i get my internet fixed and with 2 calls to singnet.

i was like trying to ask him who the colleague is and ask him to check for me. but, he said he is not able to check who he is. please la... singnet is able to check tt at 8am in the morn today i had gone online... how can they not know who the guy was talking over the phone with me just now. i bet they make a record on every calls... think i stupid or wat...

well, that shows how good is the service of singnet in providing technical support... and how much the internet loves me today!! i only want to upload my photos but in the end took like 1 hr to do it... Great!

Choices

Life is about making choices. Thats why life sucks. I am so lost now esp when you have no idea what you really want to be next time. It's not about the issue that I can't fufil my ambition of being someone great. It's about what job you will do to make it as a career. The job that you really love doing it. Is that too much of me asking for this?



Felt especially depress today after going for the Career Fair at MPSH with Jol. The Career Fair got only a handful of companies and Government sector that were actually relevant to what we're studying now. E.g. MOE and A star. Whoa! It just made me felt that our degree is so worthless lor. Imagine me having my lousy results and was still thinking of working at A star. Hah! In my dreams!



Although working life is still roughly about 1 to 2 years away from me, but the worry for my future is overwhelming. Let's not talk about so far in the future. The next major choice I have to make soon is my Concentration. This thing have been worrying me since like last year when i used to blog about it. Wah Kao! I am still in my dilema after such a freaking long time. I decided to blog as this is one of my little crisis in my life now. I thought I would follow my interests in going to concentrate in Biology as I knew that was what I enjoyed studying the most. It was so fun learning Physiology and Biodiversity and these Bio modules I had score pretty well in it which gave me some confidence to want to do Bio. Somemore, heard from that Physio senior that Bio lessons were very slack just like Biod.



Yet, I am worried is that this concentration seems "worthless" as the focus now is always on Molecular Bio not the traditional one. Then I thought should I go and concentrate on MCB instead since it seems to be the most practical of all as it teaches all the very practical techniques that is more correlated to most labs and it seems to be the most rational choice as some of the modules were more alike as those we had learnt in Poly. But then, you can never compare Poly standards and Uni standards as my results for those Molecular Bio subjects are like shit compared to the good old days in Poly.



So, I decided to asked myself what job should I take on next time so that whatever I learnt now it would be more correlated to what I do next time. But I could only see blank. I even thought of going to do Accountancy in ACCA as part time student whilst working which I knew its going to be very tough. I have thought of all possibilities but nothing seems to be what I want for sure. I really don't know what is best for me and I envy those friends who had knew what they want in life.



I am beginning to hate the Science that I am doing now as initially when i entered NP to do BMS, I never knew that Science could be in this way. What I thought initially was that I want to do Biology in NP but obviously that was not the case after all. I had love Biology during Secondary School and now I kind of regret what I am studying now as it seems that we are going to have a very bleak future. Arts students could earn a general degree with such a easy life while Science students had to study like hell just to get an equivalent general degree. I hate it man!



I hate to make bad choices again in my life. This dilema is exactly just like 2 years ago when I was contemplating with which Uni to choose. Even now, I still question myself if I had made the right choice in studying Lifesciences and studying in NUS. It just scares me on that we got to choose our Concentration soon. Though this seems to be a minor issue, but it could vary your life to be in hell or in heaven in the next year at least.

8 weeks after school reopening & 5 weeks after my 21st birthday...

school was horrendous esp after the mid-term test for molecular bio... horrible... it just drain me... life just go on during this 2 months... nth much had happened to my life... except tt i had my memorable 21st birthday celebration with my frens.. i noe its late but i still wanna thank all those who hv made it to my birthday as u guys had made my day!!! hahaha... fyi.. if anyone wants the photo for my bday... i hv uploaded it to the below site:

http://www.wretch.cc/album/album.php?id=luvpamela&book=13

yup... life's fine except tt during these 2 months met up quite a few times with my sec sch classmates cos some of them got their bday in these few months... my bday is like the start of many many bday to come in sept n oct... went for doris, mingyue, toong yeng, yuting and dawn's bday... hmmm... the nxt to come wld be yifang one.. haha... this yr is just rounds n rounds of bday...

these days so hooked up in playing facebook... just love playing the pirates game... keke...

After a week of school

woke up with sore throat today. super sianz~ hated the feeling of having a soar throat the minute i woke up. have been quite tired by the end of the first week of school (friday) esp when we ha like 4 str8 hrs of lect and could only lunch at the odd hour of 2pm! starved liao! thats the sad part when u've got like 2 days off frm school every week cos all the lessons are all crammed up.

so far, after 2 lectures of the core modules, i just found out some lecturer's voice are just plain irritating and that is the lsm2102 lecturer. cos tt lady was just like gg thru the lect notes n had made no effort in explaining at all esp when she realises she had no time for her lesson liao. n bloody hell, she talks so fast n soft n high pitch tt sometimes i just catch no ball on what she's talking. although the indian lecturer of lsm2101 oso goes on very fast when she keeps on blabbling about the mitochondria n ATP but at least her voice is not irritating to my ear. at least she made effort to explain the pictures she hv drawn n not plainly read from the slides. just hated those lecturers who read from slides. got paid so highly n yet their job is reading slides from the projector n trying to dismiss it as a proper lecture? wat the hell?

First day @ School

well~ first day in sch was a bit tiring. physically i m not too tired at least i dun feel like dozing off once i reached hme though i woke up earlier than at work. but, mentally wise, i m a bit strained cos today the physio lect starts like on 8am compared to the rest of the peeps who wld start their sch at 10am if they din took physio. well, physio is quite an impt pre-requisite for many level3000 biology modules and heard tt its gg to be qute hard to score i think. so wat to do? haix~

hence by 2pm (which is our 2 hrs break till 4pm), i m freaking tired cos i hv like 6 hrs str8 for lect. then following, 4 to 6pm still got the bio stats lect. luckly for the stats lect, prof just gave us some introduction for the module for 30 min and then we're free to go. kekee~ heng~ no need to undergo some toturous stats lecture since we've enuff of the horrible metabolism lect. but then, honestly i felt tt the lsm2101 lecturer is quite ok but the subject itself is really terror den she still want to go thru te lect somemore though there's like only 15min left and students were all wining.

physio lect still seems ok yet but one of the lecturer who went to usa b4 for further study, his teaching style were exactly like our biochem lecturer (who went to harvard b4) but thik he is a much nicer guy not so arrogant as the latter. haha~

And the whole cycle starts again~~

Whoa~~~ omg!!! this is fast man! tmr sch will be starting for me although most of my fren had their sch started like today or like a week ago. but still for me, i hv just finished work on last friday, and sat still went out with my best buds to city hall to buy the belated bday pressie for bennie. din hv much rest even though its the national day week, cos 9th aug went to watch ndp parade with family then nxt day still need to work. only got yesterday to rest for a while cos today i spent like half of my day gg out. went n visit dangni in the early afternoon cos she is back in SG for her ATG treatment then after tt went n meet may for lunch since she released frm her sch around 2.30pm.

yes~ frm tmr onwards the hellish sch days are gonna start again and the whole vicious cycle of lecture-tutorials-study break-exams-holiday-sch reopens starts again. haix~ *tired* perhaps the only thing to look forward to sch is to meet the long-time-no-see frens ba. n oh ya~ one thing i'm looking forward to is the reopened arts canteen!!! *slurps* it seems like ages since i haven been able to visit arts canteen for the whole of last sem, when it hv been undergoing renovation. really miss the food there a lot lor.. esp the yong tau fu there... n think they oso opening a burger king on level 2 of the arts canteen... wahahaha~

pain

nvr felt this pain for quite some time since i decided to move on long time ago. perhaps its my 'once in every few months' depressing cum self-pity period again. so sad for myself. no life. no life its still fine. but a failure with no life? wat a cliché. a person with no accomplishment and nothing to proud of in almost every aspect. i finally believe in karma and that old saying - what goes around comes around. i should hv know it earlier when i was 7 when i hv jeered at my pri sch classmate then about her being in taf club as she was boderline overweight. look who's laughing at who now. i m nvr a person of luck. well, perhaps more of bad luck. suai ah~

health

yesterday, met sarah at outram mrt b4 gg to SGH to visit dangni. waited for quite a while for toong yeng at the lift lobby b4 gg up to dangni's ward at level 7. chipped in the little card & a cute little beary which sarah had bought. Quite a big change i must say when i saw dangni at her ward. She had become more swollen compared with the last time tt i saw her which was actually back at school when i met her on the nus shuttle bus while i was rushing to the changing landscape lecture at arts. she was still very thin then which i think was about 3 months b4 she was diagnosed with a rare disease, aplastic anemia, when i just received yenching's msg at 8th june.


heard from dangni tt her reason of being swollen is due to the medication which includes steriods. hence, she is now having oily skin all over around her body esp her scalp which had became oilier & her back had acne breakout cos of her oily skin. must be damn pain for her to lie on her back. so, she got her hair cut shorter. well, i must say she still look great, still the joking mood tt she always had. really hope tt she will be strong and stay healthy until her first ATG treatment and hope tt she is able to get a bone marrow transplant and be cured from the illness.


yes, health is really important. everybody noes this, yet not many cherish them. i used to be one of them. but seeing so many pple getting sick so young n not to say that mum was sicked also, i really thank God tt so far i am still healthy though i know i m severely obese. n due to tt, i really want to slim down not becos of juz able to wear nice clothes n looked pretty in it but also more importantly i hope to stay healthy n not be at the high risk grp of getting diabetes n etc. but then, i m not a person of very strong-will, cos if i am i wld not be here blogging this post n still be so obese. i always tell myself to cut down on fatty food esp those fried stuff n my fav hainanese chicken rice. but, guess wat? during lunch, i wld forgot about my "Don'ts" n when i realised my mistakes, it was too late. cos i prob ordered my food or i hv finished my lunch halfway. i think i probably be fat my whole life and if i was destined to stay fat, i just hope tt i wld be a healthy fat ass.

timetable for next semester

whoa~~ finally gotten the timetable for nxt sem. it has been a long wait for me cos like i said in the earlier posts tt i hv always been very anxious in which modules i wld be doing as i do not want any core modules to clash with physiology. finally, i hv gotten wat i hv wanted and very the heng~~ i m in grp 1 so there's no clahes of the modules. heng arh~~

however, some of my frens is not so lucky cos though they wanted to do physiology too, but they were in grp 2 n there would modules clashes. very cham for them to need to find pple to swap semester grp with them. really "pei fu" the sch's kind of randomness... cos its like out of the 10 poly frens tt went to lifesciences in nus, (frm wat i noe) about 8 of us were in grp 1 already. wah~~ damn lucky to be with my frens sia. hmmm~~ hope tt i can get the 2 electives tt i m gg to bid for - general physiolody & food and health. i hv already show hand all my points in G acc and P account liao in the advance bidding... haiz~

hopefully if everything all goes well... i will be able to have thurs free! kekeke~